A DAY IN THE LIFE

PUNISHMENT & PERSPECTIVE

When I was recently asked about punishments in those places by someone who was never in those places I think she expected an answer like: "well they used they're hands or fists to box us or clatter us, their feet to boot us and they used blackthorn sticks or big leather belts for more formal punishments." Sounds like an answer that couldn't be denied, even she could relate to those types of punishments. She was around 40 years old and she was from the era of corporal punishment. But that wasn't the answer I gave her.

In those places EVERYTHING was part of your punishment. Mealtimes were a PUNISHMENT. Our food was vile, it really would have been illegal AND cruel to feed pigs on what we "survived" on. Our main food really was bread and dripping. And the dripping wasn't the nice white strained stuff you'd see on the shelves of Tesco's all nicely wrapped, nope it was a funny yellow colour.

Funny isn't the right word there - it was a kind of OFF-YELLOW/KHAKI colour. Having that spread on your skinner (slice of bread) in the morning at 7:00am was meant to sustain until 12:30 in the afternoon. I remember getting "porridge" too, note the quotes as when I became an adult and was given porridge I hesitated because what I was being served as an adult didn't look or didn't taste anything like what I got as porridge in those places. I firmly believe that this "porridge" we were given was something that the pigs had refused to eat.

Dinners were another PUNISHMENT. Let me describe a STEW in those places. Imagine a gravy, not too thick now, with soft watery lumps, 3 strands of meat - these strands are THINNER than your laces and about the length of your thumb (this is the thumb of a 10 year old child), 2 slices of carrot and 1 spud (green tinged of course). But wait now we also got desserts sometimes, really we did. How ever so posh. May I describe the dessert? OK. Well it was a bread pudding. That's not very posh I hear you say - but hold on now - our bread pudding was also green-tinged AND had that OFF-YELLOW/KHAKI colour. Beat that.

Tea/Supper was the old reliable: Bread and Dripping again but THEY did try to vary our Tea/Supper because we'd get "Oxtail Soup" sometimes. Well THEY called it "Oxtail Soup" and I've watched, with something approaching jealousy, my own children having Oxtail Soup and let me tell you my children's Oxtail Soup is nothing like the "Oxtail Soup" dished up to us in those places. We'll never know what kind of dish it was as the Government of the day didn't have the right to demand from these orders the diet that we were fed on. I'm just talking about our diets in those places being used as way to PUNISH us. But really everything about those places was a PUNISHMENT.

From the isolation from society, to the regimentation of little children - being forced to march from one place to another, children being forced to stand to attention in the yard semi-naked while the "nurse" inspected us OR, if the notion took her, have a good few of us scrubbed down with purple or brown iodine. Being forced to say rosaries was a PUNISHMENT, being forced violently to run around the yard with a lighted candle at night in the rain was a PUNISHMENT. Being forced violently to scrub toilets with your own toothbrush was a PUNISHMENT.

Being forced violently to learn how to darn a sock was a PUNISHMENT. Being physically separated from your brother or sister was a PUNISHMENT. Being forced to listen to those black-garbed monsters denigrate you Mum and Dad was a PUNISHMENT. Being violently forced to become right-handed was a PUNISHMENT. And most of these PUNISHMENTS you became inured to, they became part of your everyday existence. You didn't think much of the rights and wrongs of them after a while, you let them lie in your sub-conscious mind until, as an adult, a certain aroma or sound or sight would bring them into focus and you'd rage against those black-garbed monsters. These black-garbed child haters are STILL working with vulnerable communities in this country, they've spread their particular poison around the world.

I believe their PUNISHMENT should be the immediate closure of these orders in this country, their properties and their riches should be taken from them and these orders should be banished from this country. My goal is to prevent them from working with vulnerable communities in this country ever again.

PERSPECTIVE

As a former detainee from Ferryhouse I'd like to state here that child detainees who wet their beds were punished......

Firstly they were segregated in the Dormitories. Secondly they were given a Special Name: SAILORS. Thirdly they were severely thrashed. Fourthly they were forced to wash their sheets with carbolic soap. Fifth they were separated from the rest of the boys for verbal and psychological humiliation. Sixth they were disallowed from washing themselves forcing them to go around all day smelling of urine - this meant that they received more physical punishments from those who were teachers or workshop managers.

At the farce they call the commission to inquire into child abuse on September 8 2004 the current representative of the child-gaolers from Ferryhouse, stated that boys who wet their beds at night were not punished. He said he asked those older members of his "celbate" organisation whether there were punishments for bed-wetting and they stated that there were no punishments. They are LIARS. Or is what I stated a fantasy?

Another this representative said was that punishments were mostly spontaneous and not formal. That is another lie. Punishments were formal.

You were hit for Belching (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having a hole in your sock (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having a button missing from your shirt (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having a button missing from your trousers (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having a hole in your jumper (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for basically growing out of your shoes (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having dirt in your nails and this after spending the whole day picking spuds. (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having a "tideline" after washing in the morning (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having soiled underwear - one of their obsessions (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for whispering in the chapel (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for walking when you should have been running (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for running when you should have been walking (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for turning left when you should have turned right (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for turning right when you should have turned left (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for not joining your hands in the chapel (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for getting a spelling wrong (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for not standing to attention when a Brother entered the room (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for not knowing your catechism (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for dropping a stitch in the knitting shop (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having dirty knees after being digging in the fields (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for being dirty after working in the pigsty (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for refusing to play hurling (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for refusing to play Gaelic football or hurling (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for being insolent - that's when you ask why you are being battered (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for snoring (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having your hands and arms under the blanket at night (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having a runny nose (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having scabies (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for not asking permission to go to the toilet - this involved you having to raise your right-hand in the air and placing your left hand over your scrotum if you wanted to have a pee or placing your left hand on your anus if you wanted to have a shite (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for reading the Bunty or the Judy comic - these were deemed "corrupting" (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for looking sideways at a Brother or priest (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for making noises at night when you went to the toilet (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for not writing what was on the board when you got to write a letter to your mum or dad (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for scratching your head (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for vomiting during mealtimes (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for vomiting at anytime (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having nits in your hair (this was entered in a book)

You were punished if you cried for your mum or dad (this was entered in a book)

You were punished for having a broken heart (this was NOT entered in a book).